whoa I havent dont this in so long

What upWhat can I say??.... too much has happened for me to fill u in on.. but I'll jus go on what has happened the last 3 day. Today I got my hair highlighted n cut it looks cute. Its not really what I wanted but I like it still. Yesterday night I had told myself that if N didnt call I wasnt gonna call him.. but I did lol it was like 1:30am n I couldnt sleep so I called.. we talked untill 4 or somethin... I didnt tell him I would go over tho.. he asked towards the end of the convo n I said no that it was too late. we hung up n then I called him back talkin bout how I could go for an hour lol.. he said that wasnt enough time so I said 4get it lol n I didnt end up goin. Friday he called mi n I was at my moms n I did go to his house. He's changed so much its fucked up... I think he wants me to have a baby... n had this been a month or 2 ago I would of been all for it. But not now... I want to go to school n do thins right. Plus the more I think about it the more I think I dont want a baby with him I want a spanish guy.I want my baby to be 100% latina like mi.. but if it happens then I'll be ok... I hope. he's bein so different its weird lol.. like hella sweet n lovey dovey I dont kno.. I wrote enoughtg night

Oh damn

I was with N on Sunday night and now I cant get him off my mind. =( even in school my mind jus gos back to that night.. he's all talkin bout movin with mi lol i kno it aint serious but damn,, I think ima jus tell M that mi n N hooked up when he was in Africa n I wanna stay with him... hopfully he wont be too mad lol

Damn how I remember *rhyme*

remember when youd lick my nose and pull on my toesmassage n kiss my backwhile we listen to a hot tracklike the spanish version of punkie by sean pauldamn papi u got mi recallin it allto when you would sneak mi in 2 ur room late at nightand how after some lovin u'd alwayz ask mi if u did me right.If I said I wasnt satisfied you would tell mi that you owe mipromisin to make it up to mi, cuz you'd do anythin for miyou wanted to see mi with happy n care freecuz you were my man, and I was your destiny.

Jus Leave it alone *rhyme* its self explntry.

Broken hearted from my lies, 4 a quick minute he turned to u,U met his needs physically but to mi his heart remained tru. Go head toss them bitter words at mi n try 2 break mi down,U fail to realize that at the end of the day its mi he calls to laugh at u n clown. He fills mi in with great detail of all the shit u 2 would do.And explains how you dont possess any of the qualities that he values. Yea he was urs 4 a while, but how long did that last?Keep on reminiscin girl, but face it u now jus a part of his past. But mi, I will forever remain in his present n in his future.Im his Salvadorian baby, good luck charm, n top notch teacher. I gave him the go ahead to call you n move on,But its still mi he callin late at night singin crazy cute love songs. There was no girl b4 mi or after mi that can take my place.Those were hes words little mami, cuz see u were jus a phase. Keep pridin yourself in havin my boy lose his breath while fuckin u.Girl thats jus common knowledge, its jus like runnin a mile or 2. Difference is I take his breath away by simply bein in his presence or talking on the phone. Realize you cant compete with mi, and jus LEAVE THIS SHIT ALONE!!!...

SO CONFUSED

Im SO LOST.... I mean I dont kno what to do with M... and N... I dont really have any strong feelins for M.. but I feel bad leavin him.. and N.. oh damn.. I think I love him... ever since we hooked up again I cant get him out of my mind. And I kno Im doin M.. wrong.. but at the same time he aint here so I think Im jus not gonna tell him what happened. And now with N.. I kno it wont be serious I mean Im leavin this city in 2 days n e wayzzz.. so I'll jus make the best of the time I get to have with him. And I HOPE I can see him again tonight.. Im addicted to that man.. my word..